Last semester we ended with steamboat at Wan Jie's house. This semester, we again ended up with steamboat too, also to celebrate Wan Jie's birthday and Andrew's. But this time was more special. :)
Within 24hours:
We had steamboat + bbq for dinner at a restaurant near tesco. Some i-said-so thing eventually happened, which was an self-invited guest practically turn up hoping to ruin the party, or at least someone's mood. Haha. Later, me and Moon went Shu Fen's house for gaming. Left around 2am. Went home to pack my stuff, bath then go to bed. Just when I was almost finished with packing, Moon sms-ed me ask whether wanna have beer. Thought she was emo-ing so agreed and went to her house.
Beer wasn't there yet. She had someone to deliver. :p Wen Jye was the delivery boy. Haha. And along with hin was Kean Tat. He said he found Kean Tat wondering around on the way back, so 'picked' him back for Moon who was "thirsty". Lolx. We had beer by the road side. Were wondering whether to call mr.beh, then thought he wasn't in the best mood so didn't. But later around 4am, saw beh beh came out to fetch water. Joined us but no beer for the late comer. opps. As were chatting chatting chatting, (forgotten what we were talking about already) Kean Tat suggested to go Ipoh breakfast --DimSum.
20minutes later, we all hopped into the car, headed Ipoh, Fu San for breakfast. It was drizzling in Kampar when we left but not in Ipoh. Before going to Kean Tat's house for the car changing and cashing, paid a visit around Moon's house for no reason. Waited in front of Kean Tat's house for 15minutes waiting for his mom to wake up. His mom was cute when both of them were on the phone. (Someone didn't bring house key, had to phone to open the door. Lolx.) Car changed and cashed, headed "yum zhou cha" (drink early tea). There wasn't many people when we reached, but the crowd grew as we were eating. Left Fu San around 8am i guess. One thing weird was, their "char siu pao" is not the typical DimSum type. It's bigger in size and you order how many you want. They are not the "3 in 1 basket".
When reached home, managed to take a short nap before heading back to KL. So that was pretty much how we ended our semester 2. Can't wait to get backk to Kampar in 3 weeks time. =)
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Tired With Lies
Things have been so different these days. Many things changed. Thought was glad with all these changes, but untill a while before writing this post, just realised how stupid it was to have all these so called "good changes" thoughts. Happy that all the new explored information was found after a conversation with a friend. The conversation changed the way that things should be view. And another really special friend that should be thanked too. This friend spared his ears for the most needed one (although he started to feel annoyed supposed, sorry and thanks).
So, these all started when an urge inside decided to do something that is practically against the law. It's a bit similar to reading someone else's dairy. Know it's wrong doing it, but couldn't resist the ID not to do it. Knowing that it's will also cause tears, yet still continued. Sometimes human being is just so overtaken by the "ID". And so the reading continues but the guilt is haunting. Somehow it was weird because there were lots of words and it was impossible to go through all. However the "essense" of almost everything (if nothing was missed out) "popped up" as mouse rolled down. Did the God want the truth to be revealed? To tell stop being a stupid. Or maybe not.
Anyhow, glad with the new explored. Realised there were lots of lies lied beneath. The heart is pain, it's bleeding, it's broken into pieces, but it's not as pain. The only explaination that can be given is "How much more stupid and naive can one still go?". It hurts but not as pain, maybe it was already broken into pieces and it wont feel too much even if it's being stabbed a few more times. If the whole thing is meant to be this way, then just let it be. If being confronted makes no changes then accepting it will be the only way. The heart is numb now. It is tired with the lies and fed up with it. When lies kept on coming, doing anything more serve no good.
Bet it is really true that what we get at the end is not as important as what we've been through. The process of putting things together is the essense and the essential part of everything. So we should learn from the process, not just the result we get. We stand up from where we fall with no fear and aiming for a better one. That's what and how life should be.
Decision has been made long time ago, but there wasn't enough courage to spill it out. Waiting for the bottom line to be touched and the fire will be lighted. There goes the end of the story. No more lies and distrust.
So, these all started when an urge inside decided to do something that is practically against the law. It's a bit similar to reading someone else's dairy. Know it's wrong doing it, but couldn't resist the ID not to do it. Knowing that it's will also cause tears, yet still continued. Sometimes human being is just so overtaken by the "ID". And so the reading continues but the guilt is haunting. Somehow it was weird because there were lots of words and it was impossible to go through all. However the "essense" of almost everything (if nothing was missed out) "popped up" as mouse rolled down. Did the God want the truth to be revealed? To tell stop being a stupid. Or maybe not.
Anyhow, glad with the new explored. Realised there were lots of lies lied beneath. The heart is pain, it's bleeding, it's broken into pieces, but it's not as pain. The only explaination that can be given is "How much more stupid and naive can one still go?". It hurts but not as pain, maybe it was already broken into pieces and it wont feel too much even if it's being stabbed a few more times. If the whole thing is meant to be this way, then just let it be. If being confronted makes no changes then accepting it will be the only way. The heart is numb now. It is tired with the lies and fed up with it. When lies kept on coming, doing anything more serve no good.
Bet it is really true that what we get at the end is not as important as what we've been through. The process of putting things together is the essense and the essential part of everything. So we should learn from the process, not just the result we get. We stand up from where we fall with no fear and aiming for a better one. That's what and how life should be.
Decision has been made long time ago, but there wasn't enough courage to spill it out. Waiting for the bottom line to be touched and the fire will be lighted. There goes the end of the story. No more lies and distrust.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
So, yesterday just right before I go to bath, I've decided to move my closet to another setting. And that when everything started. Started moving closet, then bed, last my desk. It took roughly two and a half hours to move, sweep and mop my room. And there I realised that my room is actually quite spacious. Glad I did the re-arranging. Of course the cleaning made me feels good.
Somehow, when I have a very bad mood, I tend to do cleanings. That's good and I kinda like it that way. It's so much better than throwing things or sitting there doing nothing or shopping to release the anger in you. In KL, when having this bad mood thingy, I actually wash toilet. My dad said it's good for me. LOL. Maybe to clean the whole house is just impossible. Haha. Now in Kampar, I have to clean up the whole room. It's not that really big actually, yet I still need fifteen minutes to half an hour to actually sweep my room. *sigh*. Haha.
My Laundry's Number Tag. Just feel like collecting. Hehe
Auf Wiedersehen und Bis Dann
Sunday, August 2, 2009
终于明白了
歌名：最近
歌手：李聖傑
專輯：關於妳的歌
作詞：譚志華 作曲：譚志華
你最近不說話 怎麼了 為什麼
是不是有什麼事讓你不快樂
聽說你最近很孤單 有點亂 有點慌
可是我卻不能夠在你的身旁
你想要的 我卻不能給你我全部
我能給的卻又不是你想要擁有的
我們不適合也不想認輸
好幾次我們抱著彼此都是想要哭
你常解釋這樣的一切都只是開始
我覺得是所有的一切早就已結束
不想再約束不要再痛苦
下一次會有更好的情路
你最近不說話 怎麼了 為什麼
是不是有什麼事讓你不快樂
聽說你最近很孤單 有點亂 有點慌
可是我卻不能夠在你的身旁
你想要的 我卻不能給你我全部
我能給的卻又不是你想要擁有的
我們不適合也不想認輸
好幾次我們抱著彼此都是想要哭
你常解釋這樣的一切都只是開始
我覺得是所有的一切早就已結束
不想再約束不要再痛苦
下一次會有更好的情路
愛 我卻不能夠給你我全部
我能給的卻又不是你想要擁有的
我們不適合也不想認輸
好幾次我們抱著彼此都是想要哭
你常解釋這樣的一切都只是開始
我覺得是所有的一切早就已結束
不想再約束不要再痛苦
下一次會有更好的情路
這一次我們都能很幸福
I'm sick
Came down with fever, cough, soar throat, and blocked nose. Went to the doctor and confirmed that UTAR Kampar is NOT going to close down for a week. It's that sad, isn't it. LOL. Doctor said that I was only having the normal cold thingy.
Was so worried before I went to the doctor. Being diagnosed with H1N1 is so gonna kill me. All my family members were so worried, that made me even more worried. I didn't dare to cough in the car when my friend brought me to the doctor. Affraid the germs will spread. I should have brought mask back.
And when I took my medication, I realised that all the med were written in B.M. WTH. I saw the doctor writting in English and why were them written in B.M then. Just can't stand it. And I have to check the dictionary (because I didn't really remember what the nurse had explained) for the word "kumur" which turned out to be med for mouth washing.
AND AND AND that clinic was damn expensive!! They changed me RM38 for the meds and the 5mins consultation. That's ridiculous to me because if I were to see my family doctor in KL, it would only be RM28. And I don't have to take cough syrup. I'll be given tablets. Anyway, can't complain much cz I needed a doctor. *sighh*
beL beL
Was so worried before I went to the doctor. Being diagnosed with H1N1 is so gonna kill me. All my family members were so worried, that made me even more worried. I didn't dare to cough in the car when my friend brought me to the doctor. Affraid the germs will spread. I should have brought mask back.
And when I took my medication, I realised that all the med were written in B.M. WTH. I saw the doctor writting in English and why were them written in B.M then. Just can't stand it. And I have to check the dictionary (because I didn't really remember what the nurse had explained) for the word "kumur" which turned out to be med for mouth washing.
AND AND AND that clinic was damn expensive!! They changed me RM38 for the meds and the 5mins consultation. That's ridiculous to me because if I were to see my family doctor in KL, it would only be RM28. And I don't have to take cough syrup. I'll be given tablets. Anyway, can't complain much cz I needed a doctor. *sighh*
beL beL
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Stepping Out
It just hit all in a sudden. It felt terribly worse. Feeling like the history is repeating again. Going through this thing all over again is so heart breaking. My weak little heart was torn into pieces. This little thing in me is now so safe guarded. I have to do so, to prevent the same old thing happens again and again. I really can't bear another hit of wave in any time soon. It needs time to heal before the next hit. It was starting to get better right after the first hit, and just right then, there goes the second hit. I think I just don't deserve any decent little "gifts", at least for the moment.
First of all, you deserved an apology. I am sorry for all unpleasant moments that I've given to you. I really just hope everything could just stopped and get back to how they used to be. And you deserved it so much. I've been so pushy in my life. Can't figure out why. Or let's just put it that I've not try hard enough to sort things out. Maybe I'm just a selfish jerk. I think too much for myself and I've just overlook what I might have caused to others. That sound like a perfect bitch and here I am.
Just hate it when things turn out this way. And somehow I'll become very very freaked out. Then, I'll be doing all the stupid things that I've ever done. When memories recall, "I don't know what I was doing" tends to be the excuse for everything. That's not good but what else can be said? No one likes going through this kind of situations, we all know it very well. But why do we still make it happen over and over again. It just sounds so stupid.
I don't know what I shall do next, because I now in the middle of nowhere. I guess I'll just have to find the way getting back into track. But it isn't anything easy to achieve. Especially when this is something that I prioritised. I've been having swollen eyes for the whole day *we know why*. That's just not gonna work I know. But there was nothing else I was capable in doing at this moment. It was a sudden hit. And thanks to you *another "you"* for being a friend when I really need one. Study must come first, I know it well enough. But when I see what's going on out there, it just hurts so bad. It's unfair, to all parties. Things just shouldn't be this way. Maybe everything started too soon, or maybe we are just immature enough in handling the situation. That's why we all always have to learn from mistakes.
At this very moment, all I'd wanted is you to be happy no matter what happened. And I'm pretty sure you are. One thing that I want you to remember is that I'll always be there no matter what and * **** ***.
**So sorry that this post is so unorganised. Just threw out anything that came across my mind.
First of all, you deserved an apology. I am sorry for all unpleasant moments that I've given to you. I really just hope everything could just stopped and get back to how they used to be. And you deserved it so much. I've been so pushy in my life. Can't figure out why. Or let's just put it that I've not try hard enough to sort things out. Maybe I'm just a selfish jerk. I think too much for myself and I've just overlook what I might have caused to others. That sound like a perfect bitch and here I am.
Just hate it when things turn out this way. And somehow I'll become very very freaked out. Then, I'll be doing all the stupid things that I've ever done. When memories recall, "I don't know what I was doing" tends to be the excuse for everything. That's not good but what else can be said? No one likes going through this kind of situations, we all know it very well. But why do we still make it happen over and over again. It just sounds so stupid.
I don't know what I shall do next, because I now in the middle of nowhere. I guess I'll just have to find the way getting back into track. But it isn't anything easy to achieve. Especially when this is something that I prioritised. I've been having swollen eyes for the whole day *we know why*. That's just not gonna work I know. But there was nothing else I was capable in doing at this moment. It was a sudden hit. And thanks to you *another "you"* for being a friend when I really need one. Study must come first, I know it well enough. But when I see what's going on out there, it just hurts so bad. It's unfair, to all parties. Things just shouldn't be this way. Maybe everything started too soon, or maybe we are just immature enough in handling the situation. That's why we all always have to learn from mistakes.
At this very moment, all I'd wanted is you to be happy no matter what happened. And I'm pretty sure you are. One thing that I want you to remember is that I'll always be there no matter what and * **** ***.
**So sorry that this post is so unorganised. Just threw out anything that came across my mind.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Reminded
Went online straight away as I reach home from campus. I was scrolling down to find the facebook site when I saw an address that I’ve never came across before. Was wondering what site is that. It was a blog site that belongs to my cousin aunty.
As I browse through, my attention was cought by the chinese writings,
As I browse through, my attention was cought by the chinese writings,
"阿姨曾经说过，来不及等到我回来，是您没福气。
其实，没福气的应该是我。
我们终究缘铿一面。遗憾啊。"
Tears came running down my cheek as I instantly read the whole blog. My heart sores badly. Memories flashes through my mind. And I realised that none of us have forgotten the past. Not a bit.
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