Saturday, September 18, 2010

Blog Day

Yeay! I called this blog day because I read hell a lot of blogs (approximately 10+, considered a lot right!). Some were my friends, some were friend's friends (it's called Social Referral I think).

Why is today blog day instead?
My second last paper is due on Tuesday, and I am not studying at all. I finished up Grey's Anatomy season 6 within two days, that's pretty crazy isn't it?! I was not at all in the mood to study, in addition that I was/am a lil down, so I decided to read some blogs, then I saw the links and linked and linked. I pick only those which were written in English to read, coz I am not a Chinese reader I swear.

I like reading ENGLISH. Yes, reading English. I enjoy observing the way people write, it's nice and cute. It's really fun to see how people make use of words, how they construct those lines. I like English, but somehow mine suck to the max. Mainly because I am lazy (haha, yes I am! I supposed if I were hardworking enough, I would be someone now, at least my resume would looked super~).

There is one blog which was written with very good English. I personally like that blog because it's very enthusiastic. She wrote it in a way that you could feel life is so wonderful and she enjoyed every bit of it. I skipped the bible parts because I don't want to get myself involved in religion yet, not so soon at least. Her blog also kept me updated with a lil bit of her life, not much but supposed it's enough.

Another two blogs, by hi-bye friends. The only thing I enjoyed is still the English part. It's really fun to read those English. No offence, but it's obvious that neither anyone of us have up-to-standard English yet. After all, we live in the 'manglish' environment. Overall, I also enjoyed reading and get to know what they had in minds.

Two by normal friends, bilingual blogs. Written in English and Chinese. I ran through the Chinese's real quickly and read those English ones. I like the way life was expressed with those limited English words that they knew. It's cute to see that some grammars and rules were picked up from movies and dramas, because I do the same thing too..! XD

A lil girl's blog, personally find it very interesting. Very nice and cool blog design with some small cute buttons. (Imma computer idiot, so it looks damn cool to me!). Her blog is very "spacious", because not too much words neither photos(most of it larh~). But it's funny to see the way she blogs, very TELEGRAPHIC. *wondering should I put a link? nah~ http://fionslove.blogspot.com/*

The rest was no bad as I also enjoyed reading them. It's pretty exciting to see how people treat their life and experiences. At the same time, we can apply it to ourself. This will make us more flexible and adaptive to the environment. Besides, you get to know a lil gossips here and there. Not much people are good at keeping secrets, as people basically like telling others the secret and then say "you swear you wont tell others ok?!". The same thing then passes around, it's cute and funny when you see this but not cute at all when it's your secret being passed around. Haha.

Have you ever try sitting by the bus stop, doing nothing but observing how people behave? (I know you do that all the time MSH~! :)) ) And also see how people would dress to different occasions. I personally like looking at their shoes and I'll be thinking "eww, that shoe is so ugly. wonder how much she paid and what she's like about it." or "she really has good fashion sense." or even "I bet she is meeting her boyfriend, she dressed like she is getting married today FGS!". It's evil but it's fun and indeed it'll cheer up your day. Try it when you have any chances! You'll know what I mean~

I tried to keep my blogs short and fun, but if you know me well, you'll know there isn't much positive energy in me, so fun is outta topic. Decided to write a long one this time, so hope it isn't too bored. (If you have noticed, there are many "I"s in most of my blog, which you can see that I am quite a self-centered person, I don't deny.)

Till then. Cheers.
Christabel Chi

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

A Friend

I hated you since that day. I hated you!

The next day of our last day, I was so bugged with this whole thing. I wasn't angry at all. I was sad, sad of losing you. For one whole day, I couldn't stop thinking about what happened. Seriously, I've never done such thing. I still couldn't believe I actually did it.

I wasn't sad anymore then. That feeling changed, it changed into hatred. I deleted you from my phone contact, I deleted you from facebook, I deleted you from msn. But the last thing I wanted is to delete you from my memory. I don't know why.

Is that the real feeling I am having deep inside my heart? NO. I know it very well that I changed it into hating you so that I wont think of you anymore. I am sorry for what happened between us, and I am also sorry that I don't know what I've done makes you hated me so badly. You probably hated me for what I've said and done to you, but have you thought that all these while, what you've said and done also hurt me.

Every time I see you in the house, I felt like saying hi to you, just a simple hi will do.

*I've never took friendship so seriously like this time. I still cannot believe what I wrote.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

又一个学期。

一个学期又即将过去了。。

上学期过得很吃力,因为考试压力让我喘不过气来。。

这学期功课考试没有上学期繁忙(但考试没那么简单哦~),可是一样那么吃力,喘不过气。。这次的烦恼是我最担心的问题。。人际关系。。唉,自问从来都不善于处理人际关系,所以呀我才没报读PR。(不好笑。。。T_T)

不懂为何,这学期会把人际关系搞得那么糟。这糟糕的程度还让我做出了一个一路来都没勇气做的事,也没想过会踏出这一步。这可不容易叻。

虽然。。。但是。。。 不是什么可怕的事啦,但踏出这步真的不简单。。因为毕竟自己身处同行。。(嘻嘻)

另一件事,这学期好像和“你”沟通多了叻。有点心疼你的处境,也有点不开心发生这么大件事也没告诉我。。。毕竟我们俩“在一起”已经有8年了。。。

圆规真钻。其实到目前为止,我仍然在挖头为什么会这样。。。到底发生了什么事。。有人可以告诉我吗?

很多人都说我,看起来很强,也很凶。。很凶?还好吧。。其实我的外边和内在是360度不一样,我很笨,很心软,很八,很直,很模糊,很傻,很短见,很小气,和很爱面子。。唉唉唉。。很差劲吧,(某某人,你的眼光很差叻~)这统统都和我的外表恰恰相反,赞么!真的有点讨厌自己。。。

我很相信Sigmund Freud 的理论,现在的我们都是由小时候所造的,(唯除我外表,但也说不定。哎哟!)相信我儿时的发展不那么成功,都怪自己了。。。

这学期快走完了啦,我双指交叉,只盼一切顺顺利利,(想去问问神添~)。。如何疯狂结束这学期呢?XD