很爱很爱你

wanted to do something for you, something to make you happier,
so that my name will be buried in your heart,
i begged time for help, when you are not aware of it,
quietly nurture the seed in your heart.

i think she really is better and suits you more,
i was not caring, not elegant and not matured enough,
if i go back to becoming a good friend,
you wont be so awkward anymore.

love you to the extend that i am willing to let you go,
to a place where you will get more happiness,
love you to the extend that when you are in love,
i will then feel secured.

what a beautiful picture seeing her walking to you,
i tear because i am happy,
it's not easy for two right person to be in love,
i still feel grateful even i am not your lover.

love you to the extend that i will not hold on to you going
to a place where you will get more happiness,
love you to the extend that when you are in love,
i will then feel secured.

喜欢你的时候。。

喜欢你手指淡淡烟草香。。
喜欢你睡觉的样子。。
喜欢你微笑的时候。。
喜欢你听话的时候。。
喜欢你自恋的时候。。
喜欢你顽皮的时候。。
喜欢你撒娇的时候。。
喜欢你傻傻的时候。。
喜欢你笨笨的时候。。
喜欢你说我笨的时候。。
喜欢你让我任性的时候。。
喜欢你牵我的手的时候。。
喜欢你牵我手时总是收在背后的时候。。
喜欢你驾车时总是牵着我的手的时候。。
喜欢你看着我睡觉的时候。。
喜欢你让我躺在你的胸膛的时候。。
喜欢你抱着我的时候。。
喜欢你拨我的头发的时候。。
喜欢你在我睡觉时，在我耳边告诉我你的想法的时候。。
喜欢你吻我的时候。。
喜欢你走进我的人生的时候。。
喜欢你爱我的时候。。

原来我不寂寞

今日的醉，让我有回幸福的感觉。谢谢你的肩膀，谢谢你的安抚。让时间替未来铺路。

躺在你的肩膀，你的手不时拨着我的头发，让我有回幸福的感觉。闻着你的体香，让我回想起过去。我真的很想感谢你，愿意陪我度过这一夜。同时也让我明白，其实前面的路并不暗。

不懂将来会是如何，我不敢给你任何希望，不想伤害你。因为现在的我要学习独立，要学会更成熟。过去的让它过去吧，我已经在慢慢放下了。一切就顺其自然，前面的路就让时间替我们做主吧！

Chunky Fried Rice

Since I am back in KL,then I shall enjoy myself to the most. Today my parents and siblings went to a mega warehouse book sale. They wont be home till I don't know when. Decided to cook myself a nice breakfast. There hasn't much ingredients in the kitchen but enough for me to fried me-self a nice free-style fried rice. And I'll share the steps here. Off we go!! Woot!! (Derek, 2009)

Ingredients :

• 2 cloves of garlic
• half a stick of carrot
• 1 egg
• 2 slices of luncheon meat
• a bowl of cold rice
• 3 spoonful of sunflower oil
• salt (but I prefer soy sauce)
• pepper
• spring onion (to garnish)

Steps :

1) Cut carrot and luncheon meat into cubes and dice garlic. Set aside.

2) Heat wok/pan then add a spoonful of oil. Fry carrot cubes following with luncheon meat cubes till brown.

3) Remove the cubes from pan and set aside. Add oil and saute garlic then add in the cubes following with cold rice.

4) Stir in everything together and sprinkle a pinch of salt and pepper, amount is up to personal taste.

5) Stir everything well, then dig a hole and add in oil to fry egg. Slightly beat egg with soy sauce then pour into the hole. =)

6) Mix everything and get ready to serve. Garnish the rice with spring onion and off we go to the dining table.

Tips :

• Try substitute garlic with ginger,it's a totally awesome combination.
• If preparing one or two portions, try using soy sauce instead of salt. For bigger portions, use both salt and soy sauce.
• If rice is too dry, pour little water after step 4. But stir fast because rice will then become soft. If heated too long, it will turn sticky.
• My attempt this time is a bit crunchy because have to snap some pix. And I can"t find my fav spring onion. Sob Sob. T.T

"HCUM OS UOY SESSIM"

Friday is public holiday and mom said since it's a "long weekend" should go back. Didn't plan to go back KL this weekend, because I'm not in the best form. And I've been throwing up a lot after dinner. As for the previous time, I'll keep myself away from food, but this time I've been craving for food a lot. This will turn very bad especially when I am back in KL. However what have I to say to my parents that I have no wishes to go back for the weekend.

In two hours time, I'll be heading back to KL. And the weather in Kampar now is very "pretty". The clouds are colored by grey crayons, the trees and flowers are dancing on the pedestrian path. The winds sounded like an old folk playing with his flute. Rain drops falling as if ballerinas performing on stage. Along with these you can hear tigers and lions roaring. Looked outside from the window you can see people rushing back homes with umbrellas, newspapers, and hands on top of their head. Putting everything together, it felt so nice to lie on the bed, close up your eyes and keep your mind empty. Today's rain sounded surprisingly soft and calming.

The clock seems to be ticking very fast and the atmosphere in 1335/B1 is not getting any better. Luggage hasn't been packed, and the human staying inside is still blogging and "moodying". Everything seems so cold to her. However, her mind is filled with memories. Her eyes are filled with liquid. And her body is sitting up in front of her lappy, hands are dancing on the keyboard. Her mood has been the same with yesterday. There hasn't been any idea why memories kept flashing back and why tears kept running down. She dared not turn on any musics because it will only make assist the water drops flood the eyes.

Till here, she has no idea how to continue this post already because her mind is going blank gradually. She really have to start packing for KL. It's 5.04pm now, cab will be arriving at 6pm sharp. And she still needs to take a shower.

P/S : If you so happened to read this post >> Have you figured out what is "HCUM UOY OS SESSIM"?? =)

YOU

This is a post specially dedicated for YOU, who was once me beloved partner. You are someone who was once special to me, someone who once brighten up my life. Here are something that I wanted to let you know, because I am not brave enough to tell you in person.

You might not realize what you have said, but it was enough to cheer me up for the rest of the day.

You might not realize what you have done, but it was enough to make boost up my energy to work the day out.

You might not realize what facial expression you have shown on your face, but it was enough to put a smile on mine.

At the same time,

You might not realize how your words may hurt my feelings, but I still love you.

You might not realize how your actions made me uncomfortable, yet I love you so.

You might not realize how my day was ruined by your actions and words, however love never stops.


There may be lots of fighting,

There may be lots of quarrels,

There may be lots of disappointments,

There may be lots of lies,

Yet,

There were still JOYS,

There were still LAUGHTERS,

There were still EXCITEMENTS,

They have given us tears and happiness,

And most importantly,

LOVE.

Thank you for all the love you have given me all these times, they were the best time I had throughout the year. I will not know what is going to happened in the future, but all these memories will be treasured and will not be erased.

We are both grown up. We should understand and be clear of what we are doing. Therefore I have no regrets on the path I’ve chosen. And I hope you felt the same too.

"There goes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that we have stopped loving them. But we have found out that, they'd be happier if we let go." ( modified from Soon, 2009)

"Loving someone that doesn't love you is painful, but loving someone that doesn't trust you is the even painful ; loving someone that you can't trust is most painful." (modified from Soon,2009)

Christabel Chi

A Fresh Start

So, here I am back in Kampar continuing my life after a three weeks rest. Didn't really had a great holiday as was presured by the fear of my result. Was actually relieved when HaHaHa told me my result (as the line was jam, most people were unable to log into UTAR portal and somehow he managed to. swt). It was an acceptable result to me although I can do better if worked even harder. But was glad that I didn't failed any subjects esp TCP. *pheww* And so I have decided if this semester I don't achieve what I aimed for, I'll quit studying and get a job.


Well, holiday wasn't good but food was totally awesome back in KL. Mom boiled soup almost everyday, coz I asked for. *thanks mommy, muackxx* And I managed to learn up playing "Canon in D". But no the whole song, I think coz my fingers joints are not as flexible so it took quite some time to memorised the keys. One more thing is that I get to drive EVERYDAY!! One more one more, I was spontaneously at sg. wang on the moon cake fest that day, saw JJ Lin-- he's cute!!


Okay, that was the 3weeks spent in KL. Back in Kampar, things will be better, and so far so good in studies. Was sososo glad that day when I opened the door into tutorial. Saw an unfamiliar figure who will be my tutor for this semester. *pheww pheww pheww* I've been paying attention in lectures and tutorials, there were still 'kaypoh' sessions like every few minutes though.


Today, Raggy invited the whole course to an open house party at hers tomorrow night. And she told me to bring some sweets as it's a tradition to bring something to an open house. So we (the dance group) decided to buy a few packets there. I came up with an idea to bake a cake. Went tesco, ingredients bought. I tested the recipe by baking in cupcake size. A big success to me this attempt as due to previous experiences. Hopefully tomorrow the cake will turn out to be a CAKE pretty and properly. *fingers crossed* Can't wait to see the cute guy tomorrow~~ *melted*


That's all for this post. It's 2am now, sorry for the unorganized sequence of the words.
Good NightzZz

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