Merry Christmas 2012

So, the sky didn't fall after all!
It's 25/12/2012, we survived through the "doomsday" and it's christmas!!!
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!!

Jiang~! 

After 3 failures, finally this one turned out good and made it for Mr Chi's birthday! Pheww~ Marble-top Light CheeseCake. Loveat! It was really good, definitely making it again!

Wish everyone have had a great christmas!

Guten Tag!

Bel

Dear all

If the doomsday is really happening, here are some words for yall.

MSH,
If it wasn't for guoweihui, I wouldn't have known you. It's going to be a decade in 2013, are we celebrating it in Switzerland? :) Memories with you are still fresh in mind, I treasure every bit of it. Phone calls, letters, exams, YWF and so much more. Words are not enough to express everything between us. Thank you for being there for me unconditionally. I will still marry you, I swear!

Sun,
Thank you for being a love to me whenever I needed. You are always kind and sweet. There wouldn't be so much laughter without you. I miss sleeping on your lap, I miss you poking me. I am really happy having you throughout those years. Life isn't easy for everyone, I wish you will be able to find the goal in your life and live a happy life. Thank you for being a friend of mine.

LinLin,
It's good to see you again after so many years. Reminds me how much I've miss who we were in the good old days. I am happy for you with everything you are having now. You've changed so much, as quiet as you are now, I am glad your sense of humor has no faded. Do you still remember during jr2, we cried together in class after making lianghuiyi cried? Thank you for being a friend of mine.

Lam,
I miss the days we sat beside each other, we fight and cared for each others. Thank you for being so forgiving and caring. You are always a big love to me, especially keeping me at your house for that one night. It was all so great with you. Now that you are so far away, I wish you all the best in life. You are will get what you want with all the hard works you've gave in. :) Thank you for being a friend of mine.

BBY,
I am glad I walked up and made friends with you on the first day of uni. I am even glad that you let me walk into your world. For all that we've been through, our relationship grew stronger everyday with all ups and downs between us. I hope you felt the same too. :) You are a strong girl and you will achieve your goals and dreams. And you always have me to back you, I promise. Thank you for being a friend of mine.

Fen,
I miss your cold jokes! It's been really great to have you around. All the crazy and silly moments were great fun. Thank you for not giving up on our friendship and always being so supportive. You are my greatest listener all the while. You always know how to respond to my silliness. I am grateful for having you.

Egg,
All the ups and downs we've been through together. Two silly girls sitting in the room listening to extremely sad songs after being hurt in relationship is not a good thing to do. Cycling at 2am in the midnight with our laptops just to go play computer games at friends house was definitely crazy. You are a friend that I did most of my crazy acts with, as crazy as they can be. I am happy we did it anyway, thank you. You are special, don't worry. All you need to do is believe in yourself and your own ability. Thank you for being a friend of mine.

ZY,
How are you? It's been really long since I've last met you. Do you still laugh as loud? It's always made my day by recalling the times we gossiped, we cried, we laughed, we cooked, we traveled and more. Those days were pretty, very pretty. Things may have changed between us, but I hope our friendship will still remain and grow stronger. I miss you cooking so much, and your how you'll react to my ocd. :)) Thank you for being a friend of mine.

WY,
Meeting you was like on sitting on the roller-coster. Ups and downs, it all had happened so fast. Now all I remember is the happy times we've had together. Your laughter, your lasagna, your ice lemon tea, your jokes, your screaming, your craziness. They were all so great. Thank you, you've taught me so much.

K,
I still remembered what you told me. You've taught me so much, and I still have them all in mind. Despite how things has changed between our friendship, I still admire you, as I've always been. I miss statistic tutorials with you. :) Thankiu.

J,
It's been more than a year. How are you? I hope you are living happily and all the best in your career. Thank you for everything that you've to given me, all the love you've showered me. All the memories are well kept. May the day that I have enough courage to see you again will come soon. Till then take good care and be really happy.

A,
Thank you for making me feel like the most special girl on earth. Thank you for always listening to me whining. Thank you for always bringing me to lunch. I am happy knowing you. May happiness shower you and your family all along.

MM,
You are the only and most expensive (rm3k p/m) pet I've ever gotten, HAHAHA! I am amazed how firm you've held your principle after what has happened. You will be a good man when you have finally meet the right one, I firmly believe. Wish you all the best in the hunt. I miss the days where we text and talk every day and night. I really enjoyed those days. Thankiu.

Last but not least, or maybe it'll be the last thing I will be saying, for people who I have not name here, you are in my heart. Each of you are significant in my life. Thank you everyone that has came into my life now and then. You all have taught me many lessons in life, I would never have been here without all of  you. May happiness shower every one of you and Merry Christmas to to all. I love all of you people. :')

A glimpse of me before it ends

With all love,
Christabel Chi

Immaturity

I've edited my -Friendship- post. Reason? I've been thinking over and over about that it since posted. Have I been really childish for putting things this way? Until last night, awhile before I slept, I had the answer.

I've done so much so much memory recalling lately. Thinking and thinking and thinking and thinking and thinking, sometimes I get so tired of everything and just feel like giving up again. But I know I can't because giving up is wrong, in this case. I cannot give up on myself in growing up only when things are less favorable or due to frustration.

- I love everyone of them -

Life, is never easy. I know what the problems are, but I need time to put down my damn ego. Slow, that damn ego I've placed it so high, but at least it's moving. Things don't happened overnight, it's a 24 years old ego, it'll take time.

I'm am snail that's trying so hard to crawl faster...


Guten tag!

Impermanence 无常

Yesterday morning I was awaken by a call, my aunt, calling to cancel our one-night-complimentary-6stars-hotel-stay because her MIL (mother-in-law) had just passed away earlier in the morning. I was shocked, everyone was. Never has hear my aunt mentioning her MIL was so ill. She passed away 2 hours after being admitted into the hospital complaining heart discomfort. Now, may she rest in peace.

Is it time for us to repent? When was the last time we've really sit down and spend some quality time with our old folks? TV commercials have always been reminding us to care more for our folks before it's too late. Especially during CNY, ads directed by Yasmin Ahmad were really touching. 

We don't know when we will leave, or anyone beside us. Talk is cheap, we always thought there is still a tomorrow. 4 years ago I've lost my beloved grandpa before I could do anything. It was really painful losing him, I would still tear every time I see him. I wished I could do more.

*the world's greatest man of all~*

*you are my hero. I love you and I miss you*

*my love. I will do more for you*

~Do not let regrets live in you.

Bis bald.

12.12.12

It's twelve december twenty twelve today, what a beautiful date that only appears once every hundred years.  Something special should happen today? But it's just another ordinary Wednesday, what else?

~appreciate everyone who treasures you~

I always liked special things, it should be meaningful and memorable. When I was still in a relationship, I've always tried to give surprises to my partner, even by just showing up outta sudden. In psychological point of view, my action projects my desire, which means I would like to be surprised. Yeap, I do like to be surprised, but my lousy partner was really really lousy, he still is. I mean a normal boyfriend would surely like seeing the girlfriend happy, but mine somehow is the other way round. Luckily I am bond-free now! Cheers!!

~there is nothing to lose trying to ask for what you want~ 

*wish is not granted though*

I asked my friend few days back whether there will be something special happening to her on this day, like being proposed. She told me nothing is going to happen. She said she didn't want to have an anniversary with so many other couples. I laughed, because I kinda know that she likes to have things her own special way.

~my special way~

It's a day with a special date, many people wanted their wedding anniversary on this date, but there are so many of them having the same intention, hence making this date no longer that special, isn't that irony? For me, I do want to have such special day with my love one, but when it becomes such a mass event with other people, I rather have an ordinary day specially with my man. :) Anyways, I wish all couples who registered for marriage today happy forever, may love brings joy and happiness to all.

~with all love~

I remembered telling my mom that I hoped I could get married and give birth within this year because I wanted a dragon zodiac baby. My mom told if that's what I want, I better wait for another 12 years. Actually I just wanted to be a 24 y/o mother. So when I am 50, I'll have a 26 y/o son. I want to be a young mother, young mother is prettier. Hehe, silly me.


Guten tag, bis bald.
XYZ

Friendship

Oh my oh my, my drafts are growing again. T_____T
It's time to write something, well, after all it's a new month again! Hallo December!

Well well well, lazy bones I can never get rid of it. :(
So, since I am back in KL again, and for goodness sake working from home (which I don't so much like about it.), means I am at home like 24-7?!!! Not good, sitting in front of the computer, tv or lying on bed, hey the fats are getting really stubborn and growing!!! The concept of self-motivation is good, but well, it requires A LOT of SELF-MOTIVATION!!!

my "kai-nui", "kai-zai", Joey and James

OK, anyway, to make things change I've kept my ego into the box, not waiting something to happen, but making them happen. Long story cut short, I called up for meet ups with friends. Two to be exact, my old friends, secondary school mates. One turned me down, busy, I know I know. The other one, went to meet her for lunch after her exam. Gossip gossip gossip, we were talking about who is with who, who and who broke up, who is doing this doing that and bla bla bla. It was a short meetup, lunch break for only an hour and I'd really enjoyed.

Last Saturday, I went out with my brother and his girlfriend, becoming a lamp bulb, yea a shinny one! I didn't intend to. Initially I planned to walk around Ikea shop for my bake-ware, then Starbucks for an expensive coffee, that's it, I even brought my novel along. Then it turned out that girlfriend needed some help on her shopping list and there was where I switched on my bulb! Haha!

My lovers~

Back to my point. Since graduated, I haven't been seeing many people, only my girls while I was still in Kampar, then well, no one.  Back in KL is even worst because I don't go out at all. Ajak me or anything, I just don't like going out. Nothing to do with anyone except myself I guess. It's actually very tiring going out meeting people, I need to keep myself well informed with my "guardian". I just don't like it. It's kind of a home rule since secondary school. Things changed, rules are more lenient now but I still feel under supervision. And I have a curfew, Cinderella policy. Complicated complicated.

My silly pie~

I was frustrated being turned down and then seeing them hanging out with the others. When I saw photos shared on facebook, another wave hit me. Rationalizing ain't easy, and then I remembered something. I understand this principle from a friend, we might take those people as our best friends, but that doesn't mean it should go the other way round, if it is that's a bonus, otherwise it's really no big deal. Point taken, so I am good with it. :) Plus, sometimes I do turn down some invitations, CONTRA!

*灯灯灯灯～～～*

she is the new member~ Katrine

Auf Wiedersehen!