Another Month

It's touching the month of August.
Time flies, so fast.
It felt like CNY just ended (over exaggeration XD ).

Looking at the thinning calender reminds me of my age.
Two days back, heard a caller called in to 988,
Saying she has reached the age to support her family, need to build a career.
because she's ALREADY 19 for goodness sake!
Me and my mates stoned.
Not because she has a "matured thought", opposite instead.
She just didn't want to study anymore.
She has no idea what she wants, her interest.
Practically knowing nothing about herself.
Sigh.

It's time to review my dream NOW!
Graduating this year means I will step into the working world in 5months time.
And I am still not prepared.
Have to get myself prepared already!
*Fighting!

*single eyelid*

beL
Aal Izz Well
=))

Reminding Myself

My mind couldn't stop thinking about it.
But I have to remind myself
Aal Izz Well.
Don't give up.
You can do it!

The sun will shine again~!

Aal Izz Well.
=))

Be Strong!!!

I am very fragile.
If you have known me, you will get what I mean.
I really need to be strong and critical.
Not saying that I cannot stand on my own feet
but every time when something hit me
I fall apart easily
and would take a long time to stand up again.
I don't like this, I must be strong.

*Supposed this is one of the reason.*

I have 5months to train myself.
Equipped myself in becoming Confidence and Stronger.

*梁文音，我不是你想象那么坚强*

I know I can do it!
*this time is for real, no more collapsing!!*
Because there are people around that will support me.
Even though they might not be beside me all the time.
Even though there is just one person.
I think they will me happy for me when I really grow up.
Isn't it? =))

Today is the 3rd month.
I am still counting the days although it ****s.

I miss you, msh!
and YOU too!!
: ))

Aal Izz Well

Fragile Mood

It was supposed to be a joyful day
as we visit to Hospital Bahagia (a.k.a Tanjung Rambutan),
the biggest mental illness hospital in m'sia.
Because we are going to experience and learn new things.

Somehow things just didn't go right for us,
the poor time management made us rush like mad,
the weather was evil,
all sort of stuff happened.

*Zee Avi, Bitter Heart*

*a very relaxing voice recommended by WJ*

Moods got heavier with some extra spices added.
Arguments and misunderstandings.
Made people almost collapse.
Neither a soft nor a sentimental song can cure.
I just wish there is a shoulder that I can lean on,
15minutes will do.
Is that too much to ask for?

Today, I need You. :'(

Adapting

I am getting used to my New Life.

I want to live on my own

Learn to Love myself before loving You.

I don't know who You will be

because You live in Future.

Now I need to learn to live my life

be Gratitude to what I have

and Love people around me.

*ordinary miracle*

*life is like a gift they say, wrapped up for you everyday*

Kept reminding myself

to appreciate Life

Learn and Love Life.

=))

Aal Izz Well.

Motivation

Been through many happenings lately.

Happy and Sad.

So much of it that I can barely breath.

But I had something to hold on.

Because I still believe.

*I'll be strong again =))*

I'll have to live on my own now.

It's like cooking a dish of my own choice.

Not adding anything of other's choice but my own.

I am Learning.

Looking at the bright side,

I still have my Family

who supported me unconditionally.

I still have my Friends

who listened to me when I needed them.

I still have a Future

where I will paint it with my Family and Friends.

I'll let go of Fear

because it held me back from moving on

because  it held me back from being who I am

because it does me no good.

To all my Family and Friends out there

Thank you for showing your support when I needed You.

You are my Motivation to live better.

Thank You.

With all Love,

Aal Izz Well

Overwhelmed

A very very long and honest talk

with a friend who paid a surprised visit after she graduated.

The last time seeing her was on her graduation ceremony.

。

One topic in common will let you heat another pot of tea.

Somehow it felt so much better talking to someone who is in the same boat.

Empathy takes place easily and makes each felt warm.

It helps but not too much though.

The best medicine is still Time.

。

*They walked me through this adventure, but I left them*

。

A great adventure to Gua Tempurung with course mates.

It wasn't too tiring for me,

but everyone seemed exhausted. =P

The expedition took 3.5hours.

Stairs > Rocks > Water > Sand

Ain't a sand-lover,

but did the Best completing it.

。

Credits doesn't belong to me

but my mates.

They shown the power of Teamwork and Friendship.

Special thanks to "Kacang" and "Rojak"

They held my hands through the journey.

Thank You.

。

Time to get back to work after all the fun.

*photos taken from TY, thanks*

Aal Izz Well.

Habits

There are things that I will still do

Simply because they are habits

No other reasons ( ok, maybe some)

Actions come before thoughts

Sometimes it's amazing to see how human behave.

These automatic functioning just take place without realizing.

There is a psychological term for this, but it hasn't come across my mind, yet. :P

Habits will change

Pain will go

Nothing to fear

It's just the matter of time

We learn from every happening event

They are called lessons

And they are stored in Memory

With Love,
Aal Izz Well

We grew up with these

Memories recall

Sweet in hearts

Smiles on faces

We walked together

We ran together

We smiled together

We loved together

We Friends FOREVER~

we're all in this together~

the four heavenly kings~

happy family~

sisters forever~

little things in life~

Aal Izz Well

Regret

On the girl's birthday, the only thing the boyfriend did was wishing her 'happy birthday'.
That was all, 3 birthdays.

Deep in the girl's heart, she was so desperate to have her boyfriend to celebrate her birthday for her, at least once.
But
This wish will forever be a regret.

Trust

After one day of calming down and numb my mind with other things, I managed to calm the heart down.
This morning when I woke up, my first thought was that issue.
But I told myself to have faith with it.
I trusted.

...

After calming down and re-read the post,
have I been too sensitive?
or
I hit the bull's eye?

I really don't know.
I just hope there would be an answer for me.