A Turn

I couldn't see the turning point, but I knew I took a turn somehow. And I know you were the one who held my hands through all these. Thank you.


Have been behaving well for the past few weeks (especially the past one week!). My mood was never at this tip top level. It's something good! Very glad and proud of myself that I am able to keep my positive side on track. 


Something happened today, I got really upset. At that particular point, I was about to burst. There was one thought that passed my mind : The negative side of me which has been repressed is finally going to burst, after all I am not going to be positive. In fact, the joy and happiness I experienced for the past one week were indeed from the heart. Non of them were fabricated. Thumbs up for myself.*


The frustration on top of what happened were still there though. I remained silent, did exercises and took a shower. I was refreshed, and felt better. My mouth is allowed to open then. Talked to my friend about what actually happened via sms and the everything is fine now. I realized I wasn't able to do it face-to-face yet, so step-by-step I will go. Glad!


It was another good day, a great one instead!  =)


Learning is a life long process, enjoy every bit of it.




Catching a train at 5am later. Nightz.
CCBel

I was trying to make some changes to my blog page, changing background, colors and all those stuff. I tried to take away the photo but it just felt so weird not having it. It's somehow like a signature for my blog, or maybe I hoped that was the signature. It's been sitting on top of the page for more that one year. 365 days is not very long, nor short. There is a reason why I wanted it to sit there I guess.

*I love the roses by the way. They are so erotic~

Breakfast time.

CCL

+ + +

For the past two days or three, I managed to keep my emotion at the POSITIVE level ! There wasn't a single grieving or anything that kept me bothered. Even if there were some, I managed to put it aside and put a smile on face.

But coming to think of it, when I am having this so-positive mood days, someone popped up a question asking me "today you not feeling well?". Hrm, it keeps me wondering why when I am seriously in a bad bad mood, they don't ask, but somehow when I am +ve, they think that I am acting weird.

So back to the point. The presenting CCL is so NEGATIVE all these while. Sigh. I feel ashamed by myself. And YES I should be too.

Some quick changes that I can do are, First surround myself in a +++++++ve environment (for instance, changing my blog template into something brighter, a bit. haha. don't you think the roses are so erotic, I definitely love it! ;) ) , Second just keep my mind positive. Somehow, I was able to hinder the negative thoughts from staying in my mind in these few days. I say good job! Everything positive! =)

Things between us, I supposed, are getting better. I just pray that things don't fall apart.

*I still crave for my Cameron and Genting trip badly, you hear me?!*

It's late now.

Love, BeL

Dedicated to YOU!

You know who you are!

I always felt it's a miracle to know you. And the process of us is so special (at least to me it is!). We started the KC way of knowing each other >> letters (which are still well kept!), then phone calls almost everyday, even during exams. Then to twice a week, once a week, once a month, once every few months, then no more. I miss those days you know. Why are you so far away now.

However all these doesn't really matter, because we are still very very GOOD FRIENDS aren't we! I really am looking forward to the day I'll be seeing you again. And the present is still sitting in my room. I'll send to you someday~! AHA!

It's been 8 years. So so long to me and you know why is it so. Although many things changed but our friendship remained! What else can be better than that?

I MISS YOU SO MUCH!

gotta wash up and go to bed now.

the one who love you since the start, XYZ.

=)