I am sorry

It's been a hard hard week.
First it was my grandma who had an emergency and was admitted into the hospital. We had to rushed to Ipoh to see what was going on and to see her. But this medical officer told her she was about to... Turned out that she was too weak due to her one week diarrhea and vomiting and almost zero food intake. Can I sue him?

Second, I made someone upset. It was quite a surprise to hear the news. And only because we treat each other as BFF. Thank you for having me as an important one in your life. The only thing I can do is create more memories between us. I am sorry that I can't do anything with the news.
I wish you all the best in work and bear in mind that you have to believe in your own abilities. Be the fittest to survive in this world. Things don't happen overnight, it takes time to build it up and believe yourself that you are capable, you are the fittest.

Lastly, I know I should tell someone also, but I just couldn't make myself to open my mouth, spilling those words out. Can someone tell it for me? So hard. Sorry I couldn't make myself telling you. I am still adapting to it.
You are so tough and strong in and out which sometimes I really couldn't understand such mentality. I tried really hard to getting along, I really did but...
Anyways, you will eventually know. I wish you best of luck and I will always be here for you if you ever need me. You are always there in my heart.

A new life ahead, I see the lights. All the best to myself. Aal izz well.

She is one silly girl

Guten tag!

Changes

Lazy lazy me, I made myself to sit on the couch to finish this post. Something very bad happened to me 4 weeks ago. It's very bad because it really did piss me off and I got so anxious. There was no sign of who did that to me and it happened 3 days in a row. I couldn't stand it anymore and I went back home right away. And almost logged a police report on it.

While working from home things are so hard to manage. Motivation motivation vs home sweet home. Tough tough choice!
Anyways, there has been some changes on my work. Huge huge change. Things have been agreed and will be in effect right away. It's going to be a 6 to 12 months deal and if everything goes well, fingers crossed!, I'll stick with it, if it doesn't I am going to crawl back to the cave and start digging for miracle.

Never know life is so difficult. But I barely know anything to be frank. My life is still at the starting point, up until now, after completing studies, this is where people like me struggle to survive, right?!! But I know I can and will live through it. I believe everything is a life learning lesson.

Until then, I'll keep myself in touch with important people in my bus.

*my recent addiction - almost success cake baking XD

p/s: MSH, you didn't reply me email and me sms. Bad bad you. Update me in all ways ya. And our plan.

Auf Wiedersehen