Regarding to last night's event, I kept asking myself if I have over reacted.
I have no idea. I have been thinking about it for the whole day.
Did I try to convince myself that I did the right thing or what?
He really did crossed my line, so much so that I really couldn't tolerate anymore.
I accidentally(really no intention, my fingers were used to the send button after full stop) sent him a harsh text.
What is done can't be reversed, so that is it, my words, my stand.
Today, I left home early to go get back the ring from him.
Later only I realized...... I didn't know the way to his place.
Failed, so failed. There was nothing I can do, I stayed home.
My mind was a mess, I couldn't do anything.
My elephant shouted (ringtone). It was him. (I kinda expected, but it's not what I want)
He said he didn't wear it anymore during his outing with them.
He didn't apologized, only asking me not to get angry anymore.
No idea if this is just him, forgetful and careless with the happening.
If you really know me, you will know what I am feeling right now.
I started to doubt myself, should I just drop this event.
Arghh! I really don't know what can I do now.
This is the last thing I wanted.
Monday, September 10, 2012
Saturday, September 8, 2012
Bottom Line
I am pissed. Very pissed and upset.
I am not who I was 5years ago, I am not who I was 1year ago.
You may not realized any difference, but that doesn't mean things remained.
A few week ago, I went to an outing with a friend, a he.
He spotted my ring on my index finger. He like it and wanted to lent for awhile.
I didn't know how to say no because I wanted to keep the background of the ring to myself.
So he took the ring with one condition, not to wear it whenever he is meeting our mutual friends.
But lately, he started to go over the line. He tried to talked me that it doesn't matter even they see it.
I warned and beg him not to do it, but as we are at two different places apart, I couldn't know if he did it or not. However he was honest enough to tell me he didn't bothered to take it off.
Today, he told me he was going for a drink with our mutual friends, and wants to show off the ring. I told him that was enough, and I am pissed. He no longer give a damn, replying me there is no use if I was angry, and whatever it is he is not going to take it off until he gets bored with it.
That's it, I have had enough. All these while I tried to tolerate very much with everyone I get along. I know I am not the best person to get alone with so I tried very hard to not react on everything. This time, he has really crossed my bottom line. If you don't know how to respect me, there is no reason for me to tolerate and respect.
I've had enough. If this is how this friendship will be, then I am more than happy to let it stay in the trash. Tomorrow, I will look for him and get the ring back withot looking back. And that's it.
I am not who I was 5years ago, I am not who I was 1year ago.
You may not realized any difference, but that doesn't mean things remained.
A few week ago, I went to an outing with a friend, a he.
He spotted my ring on my index finger. He like it and wanted to lent for awhile.
I didn't know how to say no because I wanted to keep the background of the ring to myself.
So he took the ring with one condition, not to wear it whenever he is meeting our mutual friends.
But lately, he started to go over the line. He tried to talked me that it doesn't matter even they see it.
I warned and beg him not to do it, but as we are at two different places apart, I couldn't know if he did it or not. However he was honest enough to tell me he didn't bothered to take it off.
Today, he told me he was going for a drink with our mutual friends, and wants to show off the ring. I told him that was enough, and I am pissed. He no longer give a damn, replying me there is no use if I was angry, and whatever it is he is not going to take it off until he gets bored with it.
That's it, I have had enough. All these while I tried to tolerate very much with everyone I get along. I know I am not the best person to get alone with so I tried very hard to not react on everything. This time, he has really crossed my bottom line. If you don't know how to respect me, there is no reason for me to tolerate and respect.
I've had enough. If this is how this friendship will be, then I am more than happy to let it stay in the trash. Tomorrow, I will look for him and get the ring back withot looking back. And that's it.
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