冲上云霄 || (part1)

听着Captain Cool 唱的这版本感觉很特别，可能因为看了他演那故事所以从他歌声里感受到一种浪漫的气息，很爱，特爱，非常爱。加上他太帅了啦！
陈奕迅的版本固然好听，但相比之下或许少了些什么的。
心理作用吧，张智霖唱的这版本有让我有butterfly in stomach 的浪漫感觉。

:)

Standing there too long

It's September now. Lets pollute the eyes with some no filter pics first.

#nofilter #yoga-slide #syoksendirihashtagxdxd

Sometimes we get so upset upon what has hit on us and tend to rant it out to release the anger, frustration or maybe gaining some attentions and sympathy. In psychology, this is probably an aggressive act whereby we need to rage the feelings out ( I wish I've remembered correctly... :目  Wait, was that the on-stage or attention-seeking tendency? Damn! Where is my textbook again?).
Once calmed down, rational kicked in and realized how stupid we've reacted, we'll try to reverse the action, probably by hiding the act, if possible. Of course there will be times where we don't mind how we've acted, probably proud of it. Me myself, have always been the former one, each and every time regretting how I've reacted.

Nowadays, when social media is at such convenience, people tend to "share" all kinds of stuff around. Scrolling down FB, we sometimes will see all these 'resentments' around, and many times people who have good social network relations will then gain many attentions from their friends by liking the post or commenting (discussing?) the issue, in this case(FB) people rage it out verbally. I used to do that too, and then I realized that it isn't a good idea at all.

#yousawitright #bananananana #REGRET #syoksendirihashtagxdxd

First, I have not a good social relation, I live in my own world. So, no one will give a damn with how I feel or what I say. Well, fair enough because I probably don't give a damn with them too. I just felt it's not my business to step in. Second, no one likes to share bitterness as compared to happiness. And wanting people to shoulder my awefullness is a selfish act. SO I've learned to share joyful stuff rather than shitty things. P.O.S.I.T.I..V.E! Okay, I know sometimes I still post emo stuffs, but I just need to rage it out, LOUDLY. Third, steady-cool-calm. Just need to train myself to be more low profile.

feel like cutting my hair, but afraid i'll regret :(

Why am I writing all these nonsense today? I saw a friend who recently broke up with his girlfriend, posting many updates on FB, and then deleted some of those posts. Another friend posted things about how bad has his girlfriend has been treating him, cheating on him and stuff. It reminded me of myself and all these tendencies and acts. I feel silly to have acted that way in the past. Now, I don't react right away. Whatever it is, I'll just let myself calm down before talking, and then made myself not to regret it (well except for driving, I swear like mad. XD).

Someone, a friend, not too close but close enough, has told me not to stand at the origin for too long. I have to take on the first step to make dreams happened. If I have no faith in myself, it's ok, because he/she has faith in me, he/she believes I am capable. Really appreciate those words, very encouraging and heart warming. It's been awhile since anyone said that to me.

It's really time to move. See you in October. I have plans now. :)

Lets have some eye candy now. :D

     

 

two little silly pies, i want to hug them so so so so so muchhhhie!!!

 
Auf Wiedersehen
ich liebe dich

生病了 (Minion fever?)

如果思念是一种病，那我生病了。If missing is a form of sickness, then I am sick.

最近不知道是不是荷尔蒙失调，还是血糖过低，总是在胡思乱想的。
心里总是在怀念很多人，很想见大家。
你们还好吗？工作还可以吗？

It's August finally. Bello August~
Finally, the minion fever has ended. So my question is will smurf (coming soon to malaysia) get the heat too?
My evil brother had my mom, sis and me to queue with him for the yellow bellow toys because the girlfriend wanted. So our treat was the happy meal leftover food, both my sisters were happy enjoying the food though.

For me, I am just happy that they were all happy with the toy and the food. No food wasted ( but massive fat intake from the hhhhappy meals instead. :'((  )

Days back, I came across with an article discussing (rather condemning) obesity. I actually read the original article (*taken down and replaced with apology letter) after I went through the response article directed towards it. So I guess my opinions and thoughts were inclined towards the response article as sympathy has been fitted in beforehand.

As being fat, chubby, round, name it however you like, I myself felt that the article was indeed crushing. Those people who were born slim will never understand how a fat girl felt. I couldn't agree more with the response article. There isn't any fault in speaking out an opinion, but giving names or stereotyping is definitely not the right way (to certain extend, that was somewhat discriminating). Same thing can happened for different reasons, just like one can reach a place through various routes. Fat doesn't mean binge eating/obesity. Hope that apology was from the bottom of the heart, not because of the public responses and pressure.

this was me @ 15 y/o

me @24 y/o

I did not go few sizes down, still so big, but I'd say my body is better built now

*proud*happy*

Auf Wiedersehen

一个人生活

最近的我实在是太脆弱了
动不动就想掉眼泪
那天看韩剧哭的稀里哗啦的
还把家里的人给吓了一跳
哎，‘金甲俳谐呐’（真的不好意思）
不懂是不是因为最近吃少了的关系呢
哇咔咔×SOT了

一个人生活的日子里其实我并不习惯
或许说我从来都没有去真正体会它
从来都不会一个人吃饭旅行逛街
没有人陪情愿自己一个人呆在家里
还好现代生活已经不太需要tangible的social network
手机平板电脑笔记电脑一一把社交居家化了
不用离开家里又可以socially updated对我而言这是好事
真是秀才不出门能知天下事～
×哇哇××我很宅

我多久没拍拖逛街看戏吃饭二人世界了
每次看到街上的小情侣夫妻心里真的很羡慕
常常会回忆过去的日子
想起就发现以前的自己还真的是太天真了
说什么过去的就让它过去
但是到现在还是会内疚和伤心
有时还会想说干脆就不要感情了
找个优良品种借精生个小孩就霸了
可一个人孤单单又太可怜了啦
×好纳闷

无厘头的我竟然想出一个租借男友的的念头
想说大家就互相解解孤单愁吧
但是一见钟情日久生情的我应该到最后会伤害到对方
想想应该是行不通
所以说我如果在宅下去很有可能会孤独终老
×太可怕了！×××××

一个人真的好难过
所以下了决心×哦嘢×生活一定要改变
什么都不管了啦
自己开心就对得起列祖列宗了啦
×我要开心！！


夜了，该睡了
晚安
贝贝

×我想要改变自己改变世界～王力宏

Looking back, Moving Forward

#hashtagcrazy #noedit #slimmerface

Met with a special friend last night for dinner.
It took me a lot of courage to meet him once again after two years.
Because he is the ex boyfriend.

It felt so different compared to whom I've been with two years ago.
I barely recognized him as we proceeded during the three-hour dinner.
And that makes me feel so bad, so bad.
If I hadn't done what I did two years ago, his life would be different, mine too.

#hastagcrazy #miniontoy #mcd #peoplegoingcrazy #nolongerhappymeal

We were a happy couple back then, both of us showered happiness to each other.
But due to some reason, we couldn't make it through, rather I couldn't make it through.
And now we are two 'strangers' who shared a good memory.

Personally, I don't fancy how he has changed. I was surprised finding out.
(He probably felt exactly the same for me, but that's not my point)
I felt bad for optimism.
His change wasn't anything bad, but to me (not saying that I am high class >.< ), they were least to what I'd expected.

Mr.D told me that I have chance going back to him since he is single and now I am meeting him again.
I was afraid that I will fall for him because I am the love-at-first-sight girl.
If he impresses me badly during the dinner, I would really tackle him. ( I am confident of hitting the jackpot!)

It didn't take me long to realized what was given up is not worth looking back.

#hashtagcrazy #chocolatechipsbananamuffin #shreddedchoctopping 

Baking, baking, I love baking. Looking forward to every chance to bake.
Turning back is just to ensure every step made was better and wiser,

#hashtagcrazy #goodbookmaybe #prizewinningbook

Life goes on after each fall.

Auf Wiedersehen

BeL

Honesty, is not good, sometimes.

In today's society, SERIOUSLY, being honest is not a good thing, and I mean it. So from now on, I am not going to be honest. Not to say telling all lies but keep it to myself or maybe one or two WHITE lies.

I went to an interview. The HR lady was really nice. In fact I was one hour late for interview because the stupid gps sent me to the wrong place. During the interview, she didn't show any hard feelings for me being late, so I kinda opened up on everything she asked, not a bit of cover. Maybe I was too naive not to be able to see through the mask, but she was really nice during the whole interview. Initially she wanted to offer me another higher post but it didn't seem like I was keen.

Waited for two days still no news. I gave up, surely I wasn't the one. Damn sad and depressing! I kinda wanted the job because there are a lot of "ang mo"(westerners) working there!!!
Day 3, I got a call after lunch. Was so thrilled picking up the call, my heart was like 'pi pok pi pok' pounding. Turned out that the nice lady actually referred me to their sister company for another position. Web-admin!?

I would be just happy for the post I applied, but why.. Such a turn off man! Anyway, I'll still go for the interview just for experience, unless they are paying me good. Hmphh!

The moral of this story is:
Honesty is a good value, but in reality being honest can screw life. And that's why white lies exist isn't it?
She turned away and turn back again to give me a smaller fish. Still I am grateful. :')


Auf Wiedersehen
Tschuss

My Month -- May

I love May and I always do.
Somehow, I didn't like this May. It's hurt me so much.

I turned down a great job opportunity only because the company wanted to confirm me after having the trial run for the post. My family wasn't very pleasant with this way, so I had no choice but to give up even after all the hassle and effort I've gave in during the interview. This alone has enough power to blow up all my happy energy charged at the beginning of the month. But life still goes on, just hold on it and sun will shine after storm. :')

There were times I wished for rerun. I wanted to go back to my secondary school life, back to college. I was even naive enough to hope that God saw how the earth has been destroyed and had to restore it back by rewinding time. Such a fairy-tale-minded me.

Again, NEVER MIND. There is no point to vent out all the negative energy to upset the self and others. Best will be looking at the bright side. I turned down a job that I'd longed, then I got a call from another co after that. I paid for a double cheese burger but gotten a mcchicken, then they compensated me with a double cheese and french fries. Sometimes life isn't as bad, it is the matter of how we take it. I believe every event is a test to a better self.

The STAR event on May will be:

My first fully frosted cake for me and my mom. I felt bad baking myself this cake because for mom and bro's cake, I did only top-frosting and side-frosting. I made myself a 4 layer "top-side-frosted" cake. And to be frank, this is the most expensive cake I've done. Chocolate and cream aint cheap, since I only use branded stuff here. The good thing is, I made a cake that my family would really enjoy because they are chocoholic but I don't really chocolate. This cake is sinfully chocolaty in every possible bite. I'd say, damn good! even with my poor baking skills. Darn, screw gym and badminton!

I am not longer the me from the past. Believe it or not, I've changed from inside to outside.

If God would grant me one wish, I'd say please let me, grandma and my family live happily. I know I wished for some other things before I blew the candles, but nothing is more important than this. 

I am tired, let's sleepy and put the past aside.

Good night 25yo me. I love you more than anyone will do.

*heart heart heart*