My Month -- May

I love May and I always do.
Somehow, I didn't like this May. It's hurt me so much.

I turned down a great job opportunity only because the company wanted to confirm me after having the trial run for the post. My family wasn't very pleasant with this way, so I had no choice but to give up even after all the hassle and effort I've gave in during the interview. This alone has enough power to blow up all my happy energy charged at the beginning of the month. But life still goes on, just hold on it and sun will shine after storm. :')

There were times I wished for rerun. I wanted to go back to my secondary school life, back to college. I was even naive enough to hope that God saw how the earth has been destroyed and had to restore it back by rewinding time. Such a fairy-tale-minded me.

Again, NEVER MIND. There is no point to vent out all the negative energy to upset the self and others. Best will be looking at the bright side. I turned down a job that I'd longed, then I got a call from another co after that. I paid for a double cheese burger but gotten a mcchicken, then they compensated me with a double cheese and french fries. Sometimes life isn't as bad, it is the matter of how we take it. I believe every event is a test to a better self.

The STAR event on May will be:

My first fully frosted cake for me and my mom. I felt bad baking myself this cake because for mom and bro's cake, I did only top-frosting and side-frosting. I made myself a 4 layer "top-side-frosted" cake. And to be frank, this is the most expensive cake I've done. Chocolate and cream aint cheap, since I only use branded stuff here. The good thing is, I made a cake that my family would really enjoy because they are chocoholic but I don't really chocolate. This cake is sinfully chocolaty in every possible bite. I'd say, damn good! even with my poor baking skills. Darn, screw gym and badminton!

I am not longer the me from the past. Believe it or not, I've changed from inside to outside.

If God would grant me one wish, I'd say please let me, grandma and my family live happily. I know I wished for some other things before I blew the candles, but nothing is more important than this. 

I am tired, let's sleepy and put the past aside.

Good night 25yo me. I love you more than anyone will do.

*heart heart heart*